lately. lately. lately

there has been no fear in my life. no adventure. no heartbreak. no torment. nothing. i am becoming more and more of a grandpa everyday. i wake up. have a cup of coffee and start my day. my day of driving and work. i feel like i am growing up too fast. my life is moving around me but, i can't seem to just jump in. it's like a game of double dutch. you are to afraid to jump in. i am guess i am too afraid to exprerience real friendship and real good times.

on a lighter note, i am progressing more and more into this whole writing music thing. i have discovered for indie folk/bluegrass/newgrass. it is so appealing. emotion driven lyrics. lots of twang. ya know. the good stuff. well, at least in my opinion.

transitioning.

2009 has came to end.

so technically i haven't updated this since last year. awh well.

but onto the real point. since 2009 is over i guess i am going to right up a list of things that happened. from january to december.

January

well nothing really happened....


February

Broke a heart.
Made mine better.
Felt alive.
Made new friends.
Became more and more unproductive.

March

nothing really happened yet again...

April

went to michigan.
went to iowa.
discovered the silent years.
loved their music.
started my barefoot spring/summer.

May

saw chiodos 2 times in a week.
drove to chicago.
got promoted.
picked up the guitar.
fell in love with my guitar.
started dreaming again.

June

saw chiodos again.
got my new car.
drove my new car illegally.
lost some friends.
gained A LOT more.
wrote my first 'real' song.
hated it.

July

finally stopped driving my car illegally.
got drunk to much.
ate a lot of qdoba.
quit drinking soda.

August

still went barefoot.
got drunk some more.
slept in a tent in someones backyard.
dreamt a lot more.
fell in love with new music.
started drinking soda again.

September

quit the wedding.
lost my best friend.
couldn't be happier about it.
met some more awesome people.
got drunk when i should have been at this wedding.

October

halloween.
got drunk some more.
passed out in someones bathroom.
got creeped on a lot.
met a nice girl.
talked to her.

November

tried and failed.
put roses on her windshield everyday only to realize i didn't want that shit.
didn't get drunk as much.

December

turned 20.
realized i need to get my shit together.
regretted a lot of shit from this past year.
hated everything.
needed a friend.
had no one to be close too.
listened to the smiths alone too much.
hoped for a turn around.

... and that brings me to 2o1o.

I do believe that this year will bring out the best in us all.
I won't make the same mistakes again.