"Hair brushed and parted, Typical me."

-The Smiths

Lately, Everything is so predictable. If you asked me what my plans were on January 21st of 2010, I could tell you.

With just a few days until my 20th birthday I feel like I haven't been taking risk and actually living life. It's like all I do is things for other people. The only time I ever have to myself or to go out is late at night or when my sisters are working and I am off, which rarely happens. My life seems so typical. So routine.

I know that my supposed 'life' really hasn't begun, but it feels like it is already crashing down. I understand that the grass isn't always greener on the other side, but I just want to graze those fields and see how that grass looks close up. I want an escape. I want a vacation. Wait, change those 'wants' to 'needs'. I need a break from my life right now. I mean just a week or two would be nice.

It seems like everyone is passing me by. I mean if you think about it, I'm not in school. All my friends are in college, getting married, having kids or something. I work at Hot Topic, live at home and have just about zero friends. I feel like a failure. Again, Typical Me.

I know this is just a bunch of mixed up emotions, but hell I need a way to vent. Even if no one reads or cares about it.